6.09.26
Holy shit chat. I know I haven't updated this in months, but literally the day after my last post my fiance and I bought a dog. She's a little beagle and is the sweetest thing ever. She's the complete opposite of my dachshund, who is a massive bitch and only likes me (though she has been sitting on my partner's lap more lately :) so cute), but there's also the thought of like, if this beagle is so friendly and loves everyone, does she really like me? Is there any sense of loyalty? One must wonder. She was abandoned once before we adopted her from the shelter, but she shows no signs of neglect or abuse. But I do wonder if she will ever truly feel loyal to a family again, or if she is just happy being everyone's favorite dog. It's a very selfish thought, but I feel a sense of responsibility and deep care and attachment to my little dachshund finding safety in only my arms that i like a lot. Does that make me a bad person?

Anyway, after adoping the dog, I also got straight up married 3 days ago. Best day of my life. We had a mosh pit at the wedding and my husband got crowd surfed in my grandma's wheelchair. It was so perfect. I ended up with a sore throat today, and probably got some sort of sickness, but hey, in sickness and in health right? See you tomorrow? Maybe? Who knows... the exciting wedding part is over so maybe i'll have more time :)

3.06.26
It's raining today. I've always loved the rain. But ever since I bought my own house, I've also been on edge with it. The house is like 100 years old, and it's full of cracks and holes and things that let water in. I'm just thankful there's no mold in the walls... or so i hope... knock on wood. I'm also glad there's no active termites, speaking of wood. Those things scare the fuck outta me.

Anyways, it is raining, and thundering, but there's no crazy winds or hail or things that will knock down trees and damage my house, and i love it. Even though my basement flooded from a storm when i was 9 years old and there was like 2 feet of standing water and it sent my dad down a paranoia rabbit hole every time it rains because he was afraid of property damage...

Maybe I really am like my father.

See you tomorrow~

3.05.26
Hey chat.
I had a pretty mediocre day today. However, i got a lot of compliments on my outfit. I wore a short sleeve knit black top with a turtleneck. I looked pretty gothic/metal with it, and i guess that's pretty sexy in a corporate setting. My fiance got me the top, which was really sweet He said he likes me in turtlenecks. Speaking of my fiance, and goth metal, I also booked a cruise that is heavy metal themed. I'm excited to see the lineup. It was either going to be this or louder than life, but even though the cruise was more expensive, considering lodging, food, and whatnot, i think it breaks pretty even. Anyway, i'm stoked. I've also gotten into the band bilmuri lately. I always hated country music, but i guess that he's an exception today.
see you tomorrow~


3.04.26
fuuuuuck dude.
Gotta test out this site width and if the background will expand. Day 1 of building this jank ass journal :)
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Great news, chat, I did it.
Honestly, I don't remember how to code, it's been like 6 years since I last tried.
Can you believe i made it as a web designer while barely knowing html?
Most experience I have coding is while I was on a myspace alternative and simultaneously getting groomed.
See you tomorrow~